Not Good Hair

Was gonna get my hair cut today because it's been like 6 months since I last did, and as you can probably tell from the Valentine's Day pictures, it's a mess. But then, just like any and all others days that I have worked myself up to getting a hair cut, I convinced myself that I was having a good hair day, it really wasn't that bad, and that I shouldn't get it cut yet. I don't think I'm even at a point where I can have a good hair day anymore, but I hate getting haircuts (is it one word? I'm so bad with one-word versus two-word situations and hyphens) so much that I will talk myself out of getting them if I ever come close. It doesn't help that I've never had a good one in my life, and I haven't had a proper hair "style" since my hair looked like this:

I would like to go in to a hair dresser and give them a picture of exactly what I want my hair to look like, and have them make my hair look like my picture. The problem is, I can't find a picture, and even if I did, my experience has always been that the hair dresser cuts my hair with the presumption that I am going to brush and blow dry it every day, which is something that I only do on Christmas. I am also limited by the fact that my face is a perfect circle so I can't have a middle part. It also doesn't help that the bottom of my hair is an awful gold color right now, while the roots are really dark, and there's no way I am going to do anything about that. Sorry to write about this, but this has been the main thing on my mind today.